A late blossom

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When you’re a kid
Its fun to play hide and seek
Even if the place is no rain forest
Just three rooms
But you everthing just seems bigger
Full of mystery and possibility
Behind curtains or sofas
Under the table
Or inside the cupboard
Anyplace you can find
Resisting the urge to laugh
Or talk to loud
You loved attention
You loved playing with the pigeons
Falling asleep on the couch while watching cartoons
Waking up to the sun in your tiny  bed
You liked attending parties and having to be dressed up and making new friends with no effort at all
While the grown ups talked in the living room
You ran all over the house and talked sense about absolutely nothing
And the thing you wanted most was attention
From everyone all the time
Then you eventually got older
Maybe you took longer than everyone else – a late blossom
You didnt want to be found anymore
You had to talk business and plot out your sentences paying extreme attention to the other person
You had to let go of your parents hand , even if they say they will always love you
Success will buy you love
No more attention needed
Maybe just from one person

Everything

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Rain , wind , sand and stars
Blood , words , insults and scars
Covered up with a thin veil
Black hair and red lips
Rotting
No will to fight
Worse than suicide is to die on the inside
Worse than hardship is being unable to enjoy ease
I saw you die
I saw you go
I stayed back

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Without a final goodbye
There is no goodbye
That serves a child relief
You wanted me to be good
And maybe I have failed you
Parents often give birth to children
But wait for their dreams to come true
I have not found your dreams
I have done your heart wrong
And in hurting myself
Ive destroyed everything

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